The Cost of War

It's been said, I won the battle,
but I didn't know there was a war.
It's been said you really cared for me,
so what was all the fighting for?
It was a hard fought battle,
but the casualties were few.
Only those that can endure
will remain at war for you.

But no matter what the cause
I can't go another round.
My purple heart so proudly won,
has fallen to the ground.
The battle may be won,
but the cause is surely lost
and I'll no longer fight
if my heart's to be the cost.

It's been said I gave my all,
and that must have been to much.
I've even heard it said that
I must have loved too much.
I can't believe that loving you
could be considered such a crime
but even when the verdict's in
the loss will still be mine.

But no matter what the cause,
I can not win the war,
for even with a battle won
I will fight no more.
My weakness was my love for you
and you knew it to be true.
So now to walk away
is all that I can do.

It's been said there'd be no flowers
without the falling rain
and perhaps there'd be no happiness
if first there was no pain.
so while my wounds may still be bleeding
I know that soon they'll heal
and that my hardened heart will
remember how love feels.

But for now I have forgotten
how it feels to really care
and to know that someone loves you
and to know that they'll be there
to help pick up the pieces
even when a battle's lost
but I'll no longer fight
if my heart's to be the cost.

This is a poem that was written by a very dear friend of mine. her name is Vicki Spencer. Vicki helped me through a very hard time in my life when I was ready to throw in the towel and call it quits. She was the only one who took me seriously enough, to make a true difference. If it weren't for Vicki's understanding in what I was going through, I truly doubt if I'd be around today to talk about it. I don't know where Vicki is today, but wherever she is, I wish her the best that life has to offer her. Thank you Vicki for being there and helping me through the most difficult time of my life.

Love, Gary

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